Prayer Room #3 - Pursuit

"And I will give you shepherds after my own heart, who will feed you with knowledge and understanding".  Jeremiah 3:15

   The highest pursuit we can give ourselves to is the pursuit of the knowledge of God.  Our picture of God affects everything in our life.  It affects the way we see God, ourselves, and others.  So when we devote the rest of our lives to pursuing who God is, what he is like, his loves, etc. we are actually shaping our future.  We must devote the rest of our lives to seeking, pursuing, digging, struggling, and searching for the knowledge of God.  "Oh the depths of the riches and wisdom and knowledge of God.." Romans 11:33

   For the rest of my life I devote myself to pursuing His personality, His passions/emotions, His plan, and His power.  There is no ending of these pursuits.  When given eternity it still feels to small of a time to search every nook, turn over every rock.  How I desire this journey!  May every footfall be filled with humility and hunger.
   O compassionate King, how I need you.  I pray that you stoke and increase this desire inside me.  That I may know you!  Daily would my knowledge of you increase.  Father satisfy my soul with the beauty of Your Son.  I can only be satisfied one way, I was made for this pursuit.  Father today I made a commitment to you.  One that I will do my best to keep all the days of my life.  May you give me the grace to press through and run hard after You.  Jesus I love and desire to have my life hinge on your passions.  What you Love, help me to love.  What you hate, cause me to detest.  Your emotions are so important to me!  I love you! I need you!  Jesus Come! Amen

Prayer Room #2 - Experience

"...Please show me now your ways, that I may KNOW YOU 

in order to find favor in your sight." Exodus 33:13

      O Father, how Moses and David echoed each others cries.  I find myself crying out for the same thing.  One thing have i desiered of the Lord, that will I seek, To KNOW YOU." Ps 27:4  Moses and David, mighty men of Yours.  They strove after and lived by one common hunger.  One common thought and desire.  To look and gaze upon You!  Father this same hunger is weling up inside me, driving me, pressing me into You.  In the midst of pressing into You my insecurities and fears are starting to surface.  I doubt.  I doubt that you will do the same for me that I see you do for others.  I desire to experience everything that You are.  It pains me to doubt your goodness for an instant.  I KNOW You are good.  your name is powerful Lord.  Continue to press on me the weight of Your name.  

"The LORD, the LORD, a God merciful and gracious, slow to anger, and abounding in steadfast love and faithfulness, keeping steadfast love for thousands, forgiving iniquity and transgressions and sin, but who will by no means clear the guilty..." Exodus 34:6-7

      Teach me to fear Your name!  To tremble at the very mention of Your name.  Father feed this hunger in my soul.  Feed this hunger from my heart.  Satisfy this desire.  Feed Your sheep with knowledge of who You are.  Teach me to fix my gaze upon You and Your beauty.  Allow me to gaze upon You alone.  Encounter me with the beauty of Your name Jesus. "Please show me Your glory." Exodus 33:18

Prayer Room #1 - One Thing

"One thing have I asked of the Lord, that will I seek after: that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord and to inquire in His temple." Psalm 27:4

     

    The Lord blessed me greatly by opening up the door for the Fire in the Night Internship.  Ever since I started He has placed a cry in my heart.  An unstoppable cry:  To know Him.  It overwhelms my thoughts and prayers.  It soaks my conversation.  Lord I have to know you.  There is nothing else.  I cannot allow any other lovers to come between Jesus and me.  God I must know you!  There is nothing else.  Holy Spirit drench my cry!  I love you!  - Caleb

P.S. "All these posts are directly from the journal that I carry into the prayer room with me.  I will not edit what God lays on my heart.  I am just typing it in verbatim.  Much love" Caleb