Prayer Room #12 - Pre-Existence

Tonight Father, I feel You drawing me towards the “Who was” Jesus in context to the crucifixion. Jesus You are the uncreated Savior. You have always been, from eternity past. So what did You do before You and the Father and the Spirit sang the masterpiece of creation into existence? Before Day 1, what were You doing Jesus? You were delighting in perfect relationship! From eternity past the Father and the Son have been ravishing each other’s hearts with perfect love, perfect delight, and perfect pleasure! Needing nothing apart from each other! Needing nothing outside of Yourself! The very essence of the Holy, Majestic, and All-Mighty God is fueled from a perfect heart united in perfect love. Unshakably pure, no outside factors could ever add or take away from it. Nothing can change God, not your emotions, not your bad day, not your unbelief, your anger, curses, sin, offense, nothing! You cannot change the look of love that He has for you. No matter how far you run, how far you fall, how many times you turn your back. You cannot change His opinion or His mind. From this place of perfect relationship and love we find the Father and the Sons immutable nature. You needed nothing, yet You created anyways. Why? From eternity past in the place of perfect love You crafted a perfect plan centered entirely around Your Son. In the place of perfect love Your heart overflowed and you desired to give Your Son a bride. For some divine reason You created man for the sole purpose of growing in love and affection for Your Beloved Son. You created us to only be truly satisfied in the beauty and knowledge of Jesus. Before creation the entirety of Your plan was prepared and made. You knew all that was to happen. Still You pressed ahead and created man. Knowing fully that we would replace You and Your Son as the object of our affections. Knowing that most would reject and scorn Your heart. Knowing that Your Son would be spit upon, whipped beyond recognition, and rejected to the point of crucifixion. Knowing fully that Your Son would bear the world’s sin. You knew, and You still created. Jesus, You were there, and You knew the plan to. You knew that the world would reject you. Yet You still saw worth in the plan. Before creation You desired and loved us so much that You set Your face like flint towards Jerusalem (Luke 9:53) with expectancy and desire. You longed for Your bride in such an intense way that You looked forward to leaving Your Father’s House and walking in the steps of man forever so we could be with You. That blows my mind! I always wondered if You knew that day was coming. If You knew the plan, the perfect plan, the only way that we could be with You. If You knew, why did You cry for the cup to be taken? In Your perfection why did You make a plea for another way? I think You have given me a glimpse into the why. I have always been taught two reasons, reasons that weren’t good enough for me. Reasons that left me unmoved. 1. That He was afraid of physical death. (Which is wrong). 2. Because He desired any other way than bearing the full weight of sin. These two answers were never enough for me. These answers failed to move me. The weight of sin answer seemed the most correct because that was the cup He was meant to carry. But it seemed to be missing something. So today during a small group we talked about the definition of sin. My definition is from the root word for sin meaning anything that misses the mark. The definition that our small group leader gave tonight was so much more personal. He said sin was anything that destroys relationship. God’s entire design and plan is centered around relationship. Sin is what separates us from closeness and relationship with Him. In our fallen state we are separated from God and have a damaged and wounded view of relationship. So if Jesus had to bear the weight of the world’s sin, that means separation from relationship. The reason Jesus asked if there was any other way is because He was about to be removed from perfect relationship with the Father. The reason He sweat blood was because of the intense stress and pain He was going to endure through separation from the Father. Jesus was so removed from the presence of relationship that for the first time He called His Father a different name. Every other time in the Gospels He called God His Father until the cross. He cried out from the cross “My God, my God why have You forsaken me.” In crying this out He was strengthening Himself with the remembrance of the eternity past relationship. He quoted the beginning of Ps 22 to reference to the crowd who He was. He bore the full weight of the world’s sin and the full weight of God’s wrath. It is in the crucifixion that we begin to see exactly how strong our Savior is. That is the weight that He carried. That is the weight that He bore for us. The essence of suffering is scorned love. After knowing and delighting in perfect love and unity He chose to be crushed away from that perfect relationship so that we could come into right standing. No man has ever lost as much as He did. Praise be to the Lamb! He is so worthy!!